missing something

i miss the moment when i felt "i don't wanna write something on the blog because i have a place to tell and saying anything" . i don't know, maybe i miss your careness, your excitement when you tell your stories or your problems, when you really care about my activities . and i need someone who really care about what happened to me now. help me at least i can't feel ALONE to deal with my affairs. i don't need for techincally, i just need a support for my soul and my heart

different

why do I feel you don't like that I knew. or is actually yourself? or the feeling had been changed. and how should i do?

i'm not a child

I don't like when you act like a child and treated me like your child.

BIG SECRET and keep SILENT

have you ever become a very trusted person?
for me, it is a BIG appreciation
but sometimes it become a burden that you should to keep by yourself.
JUST yourself.

and today i got the trust.

i just can keep silent and speechless.

ya ALLAH, how can??

and this secret should I go through every day, starting a few days ahead

W.A.I.T.I.N.G

no one likes waiting.

but i still waiting for you

from this

till this

and don't know how long i'll still waiting

i just can't sleep

new name for my blog

hey....today, i changed my blog name. from groovy coffe with jazzy basketball become much and more.

why? because suddenly I felt I had to do much and more things than others, if I wanted to be unusual person.

maybe it's because few days ago i saw my score and............. soooo...disappointed.

and i want somethig more...more..more...and much!

i don't wanna be the ordinary person, because life is too short to being like that.

good luck for you guys! and goodluck for us..

oh, and please pray for my special for his match like scientific works. goodluck....

you know what i feel right now dear.. :)

and today is fika's b'day! she is my bestfriends in high school. soo...say HAPPY B'DAY to her! miss you girl! enjoy your holiday...

don't know what is on my mind

i can't sleep again.

at this time, when midnight will coming up i just don't know what i wanna do.

actually many things i should do but none of that i'm doing now.

like wasting my time with my self.

no one to share, no one understand

but i really understand why it happened

because as my self, i don't know what i wanna do...

weird right? yes...that's me

and i feel like this only when i feel people around me started to disappear slowly

slow but sure......

and all of my plans got a mess

a very complete pain

but what happens let it happen

just live what happens and see the result

don't forget to pray and let GOD lead

long lasting WISHES

it had been a long time i'm not write and post something on my blog.

missing sometimes.

wanna shared anything and everything.

maybe it's because i had a place where i can share anything now.

thank you for someone who really special for me.

i don't know, maybe this is what is called I'M IN LOVE!

ohooooho....feel like you get your real partner. have you?

in a short time, with a fast moment, you just feel "click".

he can be my bestfriend, my partner, my brother, my father, and my guardian.

he can break my view and my laziness to go through a relationship

needed 3 years to destroy that view, after i failed in a relationship

he gives me a comfortness.

not just for fun but for my work, my future, our dreams, and many other things :)

i love the moment when we talk about our target and our dreams

we complement each other how to make it happen

i like how he treat me.

i can live without him, but i don't want

i hope it is not just for a while.

i hope my dreams, your dreams, and our dreams will come true.

amiiiiin.....

thank you for coming into my life

and i hope you don't go.

welcome to the world beautiful baby :)

congrats for your new baby mba diah...

congrats for become "bunda"

she is so beautiful

so cuuuuteeee....

congrats for mas darus..

you've become a father now

this is the baby, her name is

Rafania Mahira Efendi

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........

so...quiet sleep

and they are her parents

mba diah and mas darus

and of course for aunty sri and uncle yono,

congrats for being grandma and grandpa..

have a wonderful life for you all :)

have a good family

i'm wishing for the happiness

congraaaaaaats...

sorry if my posting was late

he7.... :p

DAMN!! i'm too in love!

have you ever felt like you are too in love with something?

you have a plan to leave it and make a new plan for your life

but at the end you still miss that things.

you still thinking about this, really makes you in moody blues if you are not with that.

and i feel it for basketball

playing this game makes me happy

i feel like i have a friend that makes me feel better from all

of my problem.

this game gives me some freshness and blow up my mood

although I can not play as good as 3 or 4 years ago,

where I can be a hero or at least, a mainstay player

where I almost became a PORDA Jakarta Pusat player,

I also had forgotten why I did not play there. I think, it

just because of miscommunication training schedule. haha

foolishly, I let a golden opportunity

but besides of all that, i still wanna play this game.

no matter what, no matter who i am now

no matter how to play with feels like lost my dribble,

shoot, layup, and my running speed.

i just wanna play this game

i don't know how long it will be like this

but now, i still wanna play this game.

this is my binus team basketball

he is our lovely coach

just remember coach,

you're the best coach and we always loves you

painting our canvas life

everyone has their own canvas but we need paints from the others to fill and make it wonderful.

the question is:

who wants to fill our canvas with sincerity?

provide a cheerful paint color to make the dark parts become more valuable

it will be like this

or just become this?

my daily playlist

my playlist name is songs for the soul.

listen and feel it.

i create it on yourdailyplaylist.com from pramborsfm

hope you enjoy it :)

silent reverie

Let me be empty

And weightless and maybe

I'll find some peace tonight

emptiness and loneliness

have you ever felt like your life is full of emptiness?

you do not know what your aim

many people around but you feel alone

no one could heard your problems

nor a hug that can make you feel better

you feel like you don't know who you are

lost in a place so down deep

a place where you feel crumpled and very difficult to get out

you do not know how long it will ends

too many things happened and it all just makes you worse off

have you??

i'm feeling it now

everything I know is wrong,

everything I do it just comes undone

and everything is torn apart.

that's the hardest part

it's better I go

if I always make you angry, sad, and never make you happy, whether it's better I go?

you always said I never make you proud. I often make you cry. I always try to make you proud, do my best, try...try...and try...till i feel so tired of all that. did you see my effort, even a bit?? i guess not. Maybe you think I rarely cried , look like I'm strong. but I think I'm not! I belyfull to act like that! i just can hide now.

I always feel jealous when I saw my friend has a mother who could be invited to talk about anything. they can share and crying to his mother if they had a problem. and...I really tired of being here.

i don't have any place to share about what i feel now, so i just can share in here. sorry for you if you read this post, i don't have any intention. i just wanna write and sheds what i feel.

flashback with elementary friends! :D

this ramadhan, full of reunion. on of the reunion that made me yippiy yippiy lalala (read : REALLY HAPPY :D) is with my elementary school friends! ohhh....it had been long time ago i never see them. it's like flashback to the full of happiness times!

flashback when we were in elementary

in front of SD Muhammadiyah 5

with our teacher. Mr. Asep and Mr. Edi

we converged in strawberry cafe at Gandaria. after that we went to school and meet our teachers, Mr. Asep and Mr. Edi. waaaw....Mr. Edi looked like older but Mr. Asep still like when I saw him in elementary. nothings changing with him. and finally, we spent our time in SD Muhammadiyah 5.

that was FUN guys... i'll be waiting for our next togetherness.

newbie percussion

down-left-right (kak dara, eri, willy, ci rosi, ME, indra,)

break for a minute :D

i really feel honored when my campus friends invited me to joined with their acoustic band.
huaaaaaaah.... but none music instrumens i can play well. hahaa... and i confused when my friend invited me to join. obvious, she wanted me to playing mini percussion. like "kecrekan" but shaped like an egg and the other one had a handle. whatever the name is...hahaha
i think it would be easy things. but when i tried it, oh no! it's hard for me!
i should to constant and keep the rhythms. it's like playing drum, i guess. hmmm...but since i have been practice with them, it's getting better.
and i would like to thank you to my friends kak dara because she has invited me to join and gave me a chance.
for indra, ci rosi, eri, and willy thank you... because they have been teached me and really patient.
for willy, you're really genius musician. i love your arrangement, michael jackson medley!
hoho...sorry and thank you friends... i'll do my best for 12 sept 2009.
good luck for us.

GO ITcoustic! :p

nostalgic night

2 nights ago, i meet my senior high school friends.
ooh...it's fun!
like a long time ago we never meet again.
full of laughing, take a crazy, nice, funniest picture, and much more.
but the special moments for me are when we're going to someplace and shared many things happened with our life.
shared serious stories but still laugh and smile.
from sinetron to bollywood. hahha
yes....this life, full of problems.

but, the diffenreces are how we resolve the problems.
the way we look that problems.

we just can shared, but at the end the executor is just your self.
the other? only help and gives support.
and this is what is called an invisible force


my ladies

that night would be complete if DAUD with us...
i miss him...we miss him :D

take care all

wake up call for interview

at 9.00 am i heard a song beside me.
with semiconscious i saw that was my phone.
from unknown number.
when I receive, the call is from someone who told me to come interview at her office
i'll do my interview . but the damn thing is, when i close the call, i forget the name of the company!
stupid! i just write the address.
ok, it's time to really up!
find the address using the power of google. haha
and when i find it, i feel suspiciously.
no one describe the company.
till i read some website, i find the name of the company.
but they haven't website. more suspicious.
i read more post from other.
some people said that the company is not outsourcing company.
they share their bad experience with this company.
and now i am confused.
should i to come tomorrow?

give me a narcoleptic !

time has shown at 1 am.
but i'm not feel sleepy, even a bit.
i just wanna take a rest and do nothing.
i've been trying to ignore what i am thinking. but i can't!
sometimes i feel envious of those who experience an amnesia
they can forget their problem. hahahaaa....stupid thinking!

huaaaaaaaah....could you give me some a narcoleptic pill? so i can sleep tightly and have really nice dream! hwohohohoo.... i'm just kidding! :p